[crabtree blog.]

December 8, 2008, 12:14 am
Filed under: Random.


Does anyone feel like a trip to Miami?

i’m back.
December 5, 2008, 4:44 am
Filed under: Music.

ok, i know i haven’t written in months. my apologies. life got a little crazy for a few weeks. but do not fret, i have returned.

it is december now – my favorite month of the year. i love winter. i love Christmas. i always turn a year older. it is just a good month.

i have twenty-two days left until i return to texas. i am ready and excited.


ok now that you are caught up with me i would like to share a list of five songs i think everyone should purchase on itunes (or just buy the complete records)

1) ‘such great heights’ by iron & wine

      i know that this was made famous by the postal service but i love the rawness and beauty of the iron & wine version

2) ‘wonderwall’ by ryan adams

      once again, this is a song made famous by someone else, however, the ryan adams version is beautiful

3) ‘john wayne gacy jr.’ by sufjan stevens

      who would have ever thought that a song about an infamous serial killer could be so beautiful. the song is eerie but captivating and ends with one of the most amazing lines.

4) ‘white winter hymnal’ by fleet foxes

      this is my december song. if december ever started a band and penned a song it would this one.

5) ‘the soviet’ by mewithoutyou

      beautiful song that has meant so much to me. the first line is my favorite lyric ever – nothing complex, just beautiful.

*** I will also add ’40’ by U2…. this is simply Psalm 40 but I love it….also basically anything by Sigur Ros

On Hiatus.
November 8, 2008, 2:44 am
Filed under: Random.

I have too much going through my head right now to do it any justice by typing it out.

I’ll be back sometime. I promise.

The Ball Has Been Dropped
October 21, 2008, 8:54 pm
Filed under: Random.

This last week has been crazy and full of let downs.

1. KC trip fell through.

2. NAMB forgot to send my monthly check.

3. SBU Financial Aid people have been losing too many of my loan forms.

4. HBU is not being helpful….mainly because they will not return emails or voice mails left a week ago.

5. The internet lied and said that the Wells Fargo in Springfield was an actual bank. Well, it is not. It is a mortgage center. I still need to deposit some major cash.

In all this though, the Lord has been good. I know He is going to provide…my concern is not there. I just wonder why people have trouble doing things with excellence. Oh well, 58 days until Texas.

Strike Three Missouri. Strike Three.
October 15, 2008, 9:36 pm
Filed under: Random.

1. Weekend in Kansas City to…

     * Spend time with Ryan and Amanda

     * Cheer on Amanda as she runs a half marathon

     * Eat Arthur Bryant’s for the first time since 2006

     * Spend time with my friends in Showbread for the first time in almost two years

     * Go to Jacob’s Well

     * Make a much needed trip to the bank 



2. Showbread Sleepover in Bolivar



No KC, Arthur Bryant’s, Jacob’s Well, seeing an important family in my life, seeing some of my best friends, or getting out of Bolivar. I want to be in Texas more than ever right now. Knowing that none of my credits from this semester will transfer to HBU makes it really hard to want to be here.

G.I. Joe
October 14, 2008, 6:07 am
Filed under: Faith.

As a kid I wasted hundreds of my mom’s dollars on toys. As an only child I had a good collection of Hot Wheels, Micro Machines, Ghostbusters, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and even a New Kids On the Block doll (don’t ask.) However, the toys that reigned supreme were real American heroes — G.I. Joe. I feel safe in saying that I owned every possible G.I. Joe. Not only did I dedicate a large majority of my time to playing with these military heroes who fought many battles on the island called ‘My Room’, but I spent hours in front of the television watching these heroes come alive in cartoon form. Every episode would end with a PSA aimed at teaching me morals and living the life of a real american hero. They told me to stay away from drugs, strangers with candy, and more. At the end of each PSA they would repeat this mantra, “Knowing is half the battle!”

As Americans Christians we have the biggest mouths but the least action. I hear people complain about Obama and McCain. I hear people complain about how a certain church is doing nothing to be ‘green.’ I hear people talk about how sad it is that there is a genocide happening in Sudan and 27 million slaves worldwide. I hear people complain about poverty and disease across the world. I hear more complaints than praise (unless that praise is “God, I praise you that I am not like them.”)

Yes, these things must be talked about. People must know about the injustice in the world. They must know about the billion living without clean water who live on less than $1 a day. Yes, the church must be called to be faithful stewards of the environment and finances. We have to tell people about the 27 million enslaved across the world today. However, “Knowing is half the battle!”

For most of the church we leave it at simply telling others about these injustices. We complain that little is being done. We harp about how our government is doing nothing to resolve problem X, Y, or Z. We complain about the lack of recycling in a certain church, however we rarely do anything about it. Our mouths are wide open but our butts are comfortable in our pews. We may be loud but we are stuck in neutral.

We cannot simply tell people about these problems, but we have to do something about them. The popular quote from Ghandi, “Be the change you wish to see in the world.” rings true. If we want change then we must do something about it. Instead of complaining about how Church A does not recycle, start going around the church and recycling. Stop complaining. Take action. Instead of complaining about genocide, slavery, poverty, and disease — do something about it. Raise money. Get your friends and family to write your senators and representatives and demand action. 

Words are powerful but they can only go so far. At some point action is demanded of us. Early in Matthew’s gospel Jesus lays out the ethics of the Kingdom of God. He then follows up by living them out. He did not come saying “Ok guys you need to live this way and I am going to leave it to you to figure this out. Good luck and peace out!” Jesus spoke powerful words but he followed them up with action. As his followers we must do the same. 

Our words must be coupled with action. Our faith must be paired with works. We must ‘be the change we wish to see in the world.’ Complaining is no longer an option for us as the church.

The Safest Flight Ever
October 13, 2008, 12:57 pm
Filed under: Random.

I am sitting in George Bush Intercontinental Airport about to fly from Houston to Kansas City. After a great (and refreshing) weekend I am sitting here reading a magazine while finishing a lovely sausage and egg biscuit. I can look to my left and see what could possibly be the most comforting site anyone could see before boarding a plane — two priests. I am now curious as to if we will even experience turbulence and if some glorious angel will carry this flight thunderously through the clouds causing us to arrive 10 minutes early.

I wonder if these thoughts are being experienced by anyone else at gate B61? I wonder if this serves as a calming factor to anyone else? With all the worries, concerns, and schedules of today does this allow one to breathe easier for just a second?

We live in one of the busiest times in history. We are all on the move. We have expectations to meet and appearances to maintain. I wonder if, for many, these concerns are their first and last thoughts of the day. Are they even allowed to enjoy today or is today merely a preparation for tomorrow? Is the American Dream worth all of this?

We are not guaranteed tomorrow. Even though two priests are on my flight I could easily crash over Oklahoma. What am I doing today? Am I living today or already preparing for tomorrow? Am I concerned about what I will eat or what I will wear? Do I trust Jesus in my mind but pull out the safety net in my heart just in case He might be too busy to provide today?

Two priests on a plane are no different than two dock workers or single mothers, doctors or school teachers, bankers and lawyers…..we are all desperately in need of grace and mercy from a loving God. All of our lives are like a vapor, here today and gone tomorrow. We are all called to ‘seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness….”

So two priests on a plane no longer provides comfort….it just sounds like the beginning of a good joke.